• They say the human experience is one of trial and error. We’re supposed to make mistakes, and in turn, we’re supposed to learn from them. I don’t think that everyone learns from their mistakes though. I think some people are doomed to the same misfortune, including myself. Over the years I’ve made one mistake in particular, several times. That mistake, is putting my trust in others. I put too much trust in people, only to have that trust betrayed. I’m not sure whether to say I’m a fool for trusting others, or that it’s other people who are the fools. Humans have been known to betray, to lie, and to hurt others. I don’t believe I’ll ever understand it though. Recently, someone made a promise to me, one I truly believed in. That promise was to always be by my side, to take care of me, and to take my pain away. Of course now, that promise has been broken, since the person who made it is gone. As a result, I’ve been left really hurt. It brings back memories of three years ago, when a woman I was engaged to cheated on me. She went in one day from treating me like I was everything, to treating me like I was worthless, that everything between us never existed. I have to question why, or how, human beings could ever be like that. How you can say I care about you one day, and say I don’t care about you the next? That you want to spend the rest of your live with someone, and the next day, say you don’t want them in your life at all. We’ve probably all been victims of this at one point or another. If only humans were more compassionate, caring creatures. How does one overcome an ordeal like this? How do you make the hurt go away? I’ve noticed in my case, that I tend to stay, only to take more pain. It’s left me a broken man. All of this reminds me of a quote from a song, that “you can love someone with all your heart, for all the right reasons, and a moment they can choose to walk away”. We really have no control over anything in our life. It shows just how miniscule we really are in this world. People can give there all, only to end up empty handed in the end, give so much effort, with nothing to show for it. Everything we do in life is a gamble. Some people are lucky. Some will become rich, become famous, become happy, find their soul mate; while others will lose everything they have, will become miserable, and never find their soul mate. Why do we even try sometimes, take the gamble, knowing will either win, or lose everything? I hate myself for even trying sometimes. At this point in my life, I’m ready to give up trusting others all together. Humans will never change. And after losing someone I thought cared about me, I’ve come to the realization that you can’t trust others. If you do trust them, you will only be left hurt in the end, like I am. A miserable soul, trapped on this earth till that person either finds a reason to trust, to be happy, or gets the courage to finally take there own life, and set there weary soul free. I know it’s never the best solution, but sometimes, it seems like the only solution. It’s not a solution I rule out. It’s one that sits in the back of my mind every morning, and every night. It’s just like humans though, to continue hoping, hoping that one day, things will get better. Humans really are foolish creatures.