• As I lay here feeling half dead from the pain arising form the deepest part of my heart and filling my soul with agony, I crack a smile. I relize that I am and question why I am, then I think and im thinking of your name. Then, recalling the memories,I start to cry. Its apparent Im missing you. Just laying here i break off a piece of the once shattered window and make a cut accrosed my scar filled wrist. As my eyes fill with tears i scream inside me as i make one more slash, Whats it going to hurt? The blood gushes out of my cruial beatend arm and covers the yellow bedsheet and drops onto the floor. I tightly wrap it in the Hot Topic bag laying hoplessly on the floor and lay back down. My anger conquering all fears, I pull out a rope and at one end make a loop and tie the other to the top of my closet. I pull the rope anround my neck and kick away the stool. as im hanging there dyeing i think of you. Haning there wishing that somwere you are thinking of me too. I fel the rope tighening and i know its the end. Good Bye to the cruel world and hello to the new world Hell. I shall burn there until ,y soul dies out and turns to dust, then softly blows away. Arent you extremly special? you're the one that helped me end my crucial life and you're the one that i thought deeply, oo so deeeply about before i did.



    emo