• What puts me into such distress is that I can't find you. I ponder, I search, I wonder, but you never turn up. And what kills me is that when I want you by my side, you not there. I search and search, but you never turn up. And what saddends me most is that whenever I call for you, your not there. Hopefully someday you'll turn up, and I won't have to ponder and search. I won't have to wonder and be killed little by little. So I just want you to know that i'm looking for you right now.