• I'm sorry to everyone I know
    For all the things I've done,
    Everything I've shown
    My problems started as a child
    And ever since I've been tormented
    I walk through dark hallways
    Known as my life
    I'm so tired, so annoyed
    Too broken to cry
    Maybe I'd be better off
    Not known on this world
    Wishing for forgiveness, I sin
    There's no other way to win
    My cries are never heard
    My parents don't know what to do
    I'm just a restless soul,
    I have no importance
    I'm so sick of being unforgiven
    I'm so sick of not being seen
    Of crying because I'm not skinny
    Because I'm not like everyone else
    I'm just a broken heart
    But what else could I be, if my heart
    Was not whole to be seen
    My dreams are tortured from screams
    Screams from my mother hitting me
    Nightmares of the bruises on my skin
    Turning into wounds on my insides
    I have nothing to live for anymore
    But no matter how hard I beg,
    My dreams end up crushed on the floor
    So i'll fake a smile, I'll tell a lie
    Sure my day was good,
    It was quite alright.
    No nothing happened, nothing is wrong
    I'm just tired, the day has been long
    If anyone could understand my pain
    Please tell me, please
    Oh god what have you made me?
    How did you expect me to be?
    I'm so ******** up in the head
    Cutting out my emotions, making sure
    They can't be read
    Oh god, please, get this image out of my head
    That blade pressed against my skin
    Making slits that are shamed
    Making scars that are punished
    They aren't a sign of replinishment;
    Yet a sign of an insane, crazy girl
    Drug me up and let me waste away
    To a place I'd like to go some day
    I really wish to go to heaven
    God's holy place
    But I have a question that I wish to be answered
    If I kill myself, I'll go to hell
    But what if I'm saving others
    From my problems distress?
    What if I'm sparing a soul
    What if my death is a bless?
    Please God, you have to understand
    How could someone like me live along?
    I can't, I won't, it's all just wrong
    So i'll take the knife,
    One cold night
    While everyone is asleep
    I'll shove into my stomach,
    Each slice comes out with a sin
    I'll let my feelings wash away
    I'll let my last tear wish to stay
    I'll leave this cruel, small world
    To enter a dark abyss
    I'll give you one last kiss
    I'm sorry Father, I wish I could have made you proud
    I guess this just makes me a failure now
    I need therapy again, you may say
    As I play my suicide in my head
    From day to day
    What's wrong with me? Oh Jesus..
    I'm just a teenage girl,
    Alone in this world
    Confused and in shame
    Of my own ways
    But there's one small good side.
    If I die,
    That's one less child to provide.