• its my life who cares if I don't live it? Without him theres no reason to live it...the only thing that went through my mind when he left was...love is like a fire it burns and consumes until theres nothing left...i was left in darkness lost in dispare just wishing someone would care...if I saw him now there would only be two things I would say to him...one you are my everything my world my dreams my yesterday and my tomorrow...two if your love means death then kill me slowly. To this day one thing that goes through my head is...whats the point in trying to be happy when the very pursuit of happiness is what makes me so miserable...everyday without him I feel the pain...at school no one knows the truth because a twisted smile hides the pain...whats wrong with me? At home I cant function right my parents act worried and its like he took half me with him...being without his love cuts me to the bone... I'm
    scared of becoming a memory of something someone will forget of something that will get lost deeper and deeper in the world till theres nothing left...i gave him my heart and I haven't received it back yet...doesn't that count for something? I love him so much! I will never let him go...the fire inside me will always burn for him. His hand in mine would send shivers down my spine...i miss the kiss that took my breath away I miss how he would wrap his arms around me and tell me that our love would last forever and I did one thing I should have never done...the worst mistake...i believed him! The only love I want is his...the only love I would jump a bullet for...without thinking twice...but there would be no reason to think twice...i was made for his love....but it just wont happen...he lied..now ill jump a bullet to get rid of the pain... the pain I feel when I sleep at night do math in school and talk to friends online...everything I do I have the pain is there...picking away at my heart till there is nothing left...until he comes back the pain will stay...i just wish someone would love me...someone who would care...but I will never be able to forget him...his hands his smile the way he held me tight when I was upset...the way he used to care about me would never leave my mind... I am just to deep for him... I'm heels over head...if I could go back in time I would...if I could freeze time I would stop him in his tracks...if I could I would make us the only two people on this earth...i love him more then the air....i need him more then the air...he made the pain and until he comes back I have to live with it...i just want him back my life sucks without him...i just wish he would come back I would walk across borders to get to him...if I don't have him my life its not a life at all...i would engrave his name on a bullet load the gun stick in my mouth and people will know he was the last thing to go through my mind...i feel like I'm talking to myself because I know he don't care and I know he will never listen...if I killed myself then would the message get through?...my message that wants to find its way into his heart but will never happen as long as I'm just a thing to him...his heart pushing me away...i may just crack and when I crack I will take the bullet with his name engraved on it and blast it through my head and die with it inside even when I'm dead I will love him...i love him so much i want the whole world to know...but that will never happen...I'm not good enough for him...at least thats how I feel