• I don’t want to feel this way
    I don’t want to have to put up walls
    I don’t want to shut out everyone close
    I don’t want to be afraid that if I let myself relax I might live to regret it
    I don’t want to be someone that can twist and bend people so well that no one notices
    I don’t want to be able to lie so well a polygraph couldn’t tell
    I don’t want to believe that if anyone knew what I was thinking that they couldn’t handle it
    I don’t want to live
    But I do, for the sake of my closest
    Even if it hurts
    They can never know
    Even if it hurts
    I can hide it
    Even if it hurts
    I will never tell
    Even if it hurts
    I have to live
    Even if it hurts.