• Why do I feel this way? This coldness against my skin that burns and stings but soon goes away after I am healed. It hurts to wink,it hurt to crawl,it hurts to even move an inch in my bed. I lay there stiffly, and quietly wondering what it is I'm feeling the sudden stab in my heart that makes me bleed from my mouth to my nose to my eyes, to my very own fingertips. The sting of being left alone in the cold harsh world I call my heaven on earth that is covered with cloth of lies and hatred towards ourselves and people. What is this? why do I hurt soo much? Why does my heart throb when I think about the people I lost and loved, the people I have never forgotten but pretended to forget? What is this? Why do I feel this way? The sudden urge to cry out in my agonizing pain.