• 1. Am I a beast?

    Last night I wasn't feeling the same,
    looking down on what i've became.
    I saw everything flashing by in a frame,
    feeling nor good nor bad and no shame.

    My life never been that cheerfull,
    and its always been filled with anger.
    Most of the time I was just an actor,
    acting happy, but it didn't matter.

    So now I'm sitting in my empty chamber,
    feeling like an total failure.
    Like I have lost a game,
    a game that's called life.

    Sitting alone with no one around me,
    makes me thinking how it could be.
    Happyness and joy things I can't remember,
    or never had or so wich ever?

    The feeling of pain and a broken heart,
    no feeling any one should have.
    It hurts It drives you insane,
    o please tell me what did I became.

    I'm no rolemodel no not aleast,
    the feeling I'm no human but a beast.
    A beast that waits for his moment to attack,
    and when I did something I felt back.

    Back into my shadow filled with sickness,
    I always tought I was so fearless.
    But now I bet the diffrence,
    I'm not more than a broken soul.

    Filled with hate and awefull memories,
    can I continiue living like this.
    With feelings that will never pass away,
    how long do I still have to stay.

    I don't feel like living anymore,
    died many years ago forgotten and no more.
    My body still remains even without a spirit,
    It went and never came back for a visit.

    Many hurtfull things happend in my life,
    lost many friends and a girl my dream wife.
    It smashed me broke me and made like this,
    a jerk a fool someone you wouldn't miss.

    If I passed away no one would notice,
    never before i have felt this hopeless.
    My life ain't worth living,
    I've always been hurt and always forgiving.

    I did forgive the people that hurt me the most,
    but deep inside I want to burn them or roast.
    Burn them till there's nothing more than ashes.
    I would enjoy their death gases.

    My mind filled with sick toughs,
    see what I just wrote a few lines above.
    But I blame them, o yes I do,
    becouse it's not me, they made me this beast.

    DeadFersure © .

    2. Nightmare

    Going to bed without knowing,
    something evil in your head is growing.
    A nightmare, while your sleep a true hell,
    no you can't stop it or can I? please tell.

    While your asleep it looks so real,
    pain, blood spils its a big deal.
    You can't stop it, it just goes on,
    a nightmare so painfull all night long.

    While your asleep you can't tell the difference,
    but reallity fades far back in the distance.
    Nightmares can hurt they can be painfull
    becouse terrible things will happen usual

    A nightmare can hunt you every night,
    hopeing tonight will be all right.
    But no it only got worse,
    the night got much sicker its a true curse.

    You want to wake up but your to deep,
    to deep in your dream laying asleep.
    Fighting is the only thing you can do,
    but will it help wish someone knew.