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Why do i carry the pain of others sins when ican barly accept mine. why do i focus on getting stronger why have i shun out all most all of my friends from my life and then want to die. i feel like im still needed thats why im still alive right i constently feel like i need to be the shield and sword of others was i put here as a tool to protect and destroy even though i feel like i have purpose i still feel empty is that why ive tried to become strong and emotionless i hurt myself so i cant feel pain is that idealy correct. i dont know who i am anymore am i the old me or a new me or even some thing inbetween what if i died would this feeling go away or do i even really want it to go away...