• your stuck on my mind calling yourself the best, you leave me behind it all hoping i would someday suffer. it turns out you were right i really am pathetic. let me carve how i feel into my body, strip me down and read my life story all over again. these scars will never heal, they wont disappear but every drop of blood has been remembered
    i know i wont be remembered but the best i can do is suffer in the moment. you never meant what you said those days ignore me , love me, hate me. i dont care anymore it was all just another lie. one shot! there goes my life in the crowd let them forget me or let them praise i wont come back to punish them
    watching them all from afar i hold my hands together and pray, that one day they will join me to an eternity of pain. let my mind suffer for a while longer let my heart die instantly. i dont care what you think anymore you ******** with me for the last time
    taking out my knife engraving these words into the blood stained floor i hold my breath to say this just once " you will join me" let me tell you one last thing to all of you who say i trust you... if i mean as much as you think i do why do you hesitate to speak? i dont judge i dont criticize but sometimes i wonder, if im the one who lies
    i dont care what you have to say this is all about how i feel you had your chance but i think it was one to many
    let me die right here in front of your eyes so someday you will stop and think, of the day i had to die. yea this is suicide but now ts your turn to finally suffer within your mind
    no time to relive or renew cuz now that im gone i cant ever have you. why must i be the one to be kicked into the dirt when you cant even make a choice of who's fine and who's hurt. from now on you should pay more attention, stay alert because i can garuntee yesterday was the last day i lingered within your dying shadows. my life is so intertwined with an angel i guard with my lfie, im ready to fall again but there's no space for you anymore. i know i will do well this time, i wont be a ******** up. i believe that i can remain true to myself and to those all around. i speak my mind for you but i clarify this...... i will hold no more regret for anything. its not time to rewind and playback my life story cuz the last thing i need on this earth is the world's pity. save your words and save yourself from the effort, i wont accept anything you say against me. ******** with me once and thats the best you will do, make sure you do it right cuz i'll come back for you. i wont back down anymore i wont hold back, i'll leave out the times where i made our promises. so dont try to hurt me anymore, cuz i wont let it slide. i have made a mistake to tell them my life but for you to know...i trust you so much more. there is no more confusion of who's right or wrong we will roam as angelic beings who hold each other together. you ended my pain my suffering, confusion, and most of all....you blocked out my old self. hes chained down proper, forever binded from movements. i thank you for everything, you brought me peace within, love, and affection. so much patience i have gained . i hope i've done just as much and dont worry this is just the beginning of what i've become.