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	A lonely girl's thoughts on life
	A lonely girl's thoughts on life

	I give x.x
	I give x.x


I relinquish my hold on the anger and jealousy I have for Christi. I give up in the since that I will no long care that she has a hand full of guys falling for her left and right and not for me. It is senseless and pointless, an absolute waste of my time. She puts herself forward while I cower in her lengthy shadow, only to come out when judged safe. That is my own fault. I doubt I will change but I will no long loathe her for doing things I can but won't. I will still cradle and nurture my untold feelings for her, but I I may just have to let them go. I tire of drama and its' unending brutality. It longs to be fed and I was feeding it, some of it's favorite foods nonetheless, jealousy, lust, and hatred. I will no longer feed this monster that ends in nothing but doom. Beginning on this dreary, dark day, I will turn anew. I will reach for the light and build my foundations for future actions. I have acted as if my life was an endless nightmare, a hell hole that will not impede itself. I will come to realization that my life is far more happier than several others. I may have to end tasks that I long to continue, but who knows, I may pick them back up when I have time in the future. But for now, I must pause and take time to respite and erect a fresh direction. Wow, I just had a spazum of creative literary writing. My English teacher would be so proud! xD I'm not going to drastically change or anything, just going to loosen up a bit (alcohol not included). I may or may not give details of recent events today, but for now, I am going to terminate this transmission (I always wanted to say that xD) rainbow_kiss-able_kisses · Fri Jan 02, 2009 @ 08:02pm · 0 Comments


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