You know, I can write all about the things I want and miss
..But what good does that do?
Though I do miss the kisses the hugs
The I love yous
The warm bliss feeling in my chest
Feeling that I can do anything lol
That energy and happiness you get
lol ^^ the feeling that you can skip and run and sing and dance lol silly but my days made me happy like that
Cause I knew someone loved me and that I love them back
I loved that deep feeling you get when I was with him
That I could trust him to be my only one forever
That everything was perfect
And just that pure bliss happy warm feeling you get
Though how to get it back...and soon
Cause frankly, I cant deal with it
That cold empty negative spot in your chest
I defiantly don't like that
I want to get back my man
My love
My wonderful tenshi
My life
My Everything
I want to promise him everything
I do
I know now all the things I've done wrong
I do, I know he can't believe me, and well frankly I just cant handle the time to prove it
I seriously can not deal with the time how long I cant
I need to have him back
Back in that aching spot
I will do the best this time
The best!
I will
I will
I know I can do better and the best this time
No more lying
No more thoughts of deceiving, cause making it to be angry or jealous doesn't work anything out
Just make things worse
I will be and I am 100% devoted to him, I swear on his and my own life
Even "single" I have not had a single thought on finding someone else, cause I know that in my heart he is my only one
I wont cause harm to myself, be it drugs, alcohol, blades or anything sharp lol
Even words, nope I am NOT bad...lol done bad things but you know what I am not bad just cause of a few mistakes
I will do things better for myself I will
lol sitting with losers just to be accepted and not outcast ed
lol XD you know what that's foolish
Before break I actually found ppl to sit with that asked me to join lol XD
I will focus on my school, I have so far lol XD just look at my report card...~covers band <.<.........>.>~
LOL and you know what, idc..okay yes i do, but XD oh well if I gain more weight..ummm...big and beautiful XDD lol as long as i can run and see my toes I am fine.
lol I want to be good for him, happy and positive.
lol I'll think about college too, though I am confused on what exactly to do so many things @ . @
lol XD I will be good to him and why call him bad things cause I am angry, it only makes things worse
If things go a bit wrong oh well...ima have to deal with it lol and not make it a big deal
I'll tell everything that is wrong lol XDD even though his ear will fall off
I wont hide things nope thats like lying
XD lol you know lying is a big problem here
Well I know I did lots wrong =/ and frankly there are lots of mistakes that i cant put them all here lol, but those are defiantly some major ones.
..But what good does that do?
Though I do miss the kisses the hugs
The I love yous
The warm bliss feeling in my chest
Feeling that I can do anything lol
That energy and happiness you get
lol ^^ the feeling that you can skip and run and sing and dance lol silly but my days made me happy like that
Cause I knew someone loved me and that I love them back
I loved that deep feeling you get when I was with him
That I could trust him to be my only one forever
That everything was perfect
And just that pure bliss happy warm feeling you get
Though how to get it back...and soon
Cause frankly, I cant deal with it
That cold empty negative spot in your chest
I defiantly don't like that
I want to get back my man
My love
My wonderful tenshi
My life
My Everything
I want to promise him everything
I do
I know now all the things I've done wrong
I do, I know he can't believe me, and well frankly I just cant handle the time to prove it
I seriously can not deal with the time how long I cant
I need to have him back
Back in that aching spot
I will do the best this time
The best!
I will
I will
I know I can do better and the best this time
No more lying
No more thoughts of deceiving, cause making it to be angry or jealous doesn't work anything out
Just make things worse
I will be and I am 100% devoted to him, I swear on his and my own life
Even "single" I have not had a single thought on finding someone else, cause I know that in my heart he is my only one
I wont cause harm to myself, be it drugs, alcohol, blades or anything sharp lol
Even words, nope I am NOT bad...lol done bad things but you know what I am not bad just cause of a few mistakes
I will do things better for myself I will
lol sitting with losers just to be accepted and not outcast ed
lol XD you know what that's foolish
Before break I actually found ppl to sit with that asked me to join lol XD
I will focus on my school, I have so far lol XD just look at my report card...~covers band <.<.........>.>~
LOL and you know what, idc..okay yes i do, but XD oh well if I gain more weight..ummm...big and beautiful XDD lol as long as i can run and see my toes I am fine.
lol I want to be good for him, happy and positive.
lol I'll think about college too, though I am confused on what exactly to do so many things @ . @
lol XD I will be good to him and why call him bad things cause I am angry, it only makes things worse
If things go a bit wrong oh well...ima have to deal with it lol and not make it a big deal
I'll tell everything that is wrong lol XDD even though his ear will fall off
I wont hide things nope thats like lying
XD lol you know lying is a big problem here
Well I know I did lots wrong =/ and frankly there are lots of mistakes that i cant put them all here lol, but those are defiantly some major ones.
